Yesterday:no good dirty rotten very bad day
21st February 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
Yesterday wasn’t all that terrible, but it was an emotional, ‘lets-piss-off-karyn’ day. First I realized that living where I live, no one is happy with what anyone else tries to do because they are not happy with themselves. I’ve accepted it and I’ve moved on. I’ve removed myself from every situation that could possibly add to stress.
I won’t go into details about everything else but it was just one thing after another and it really got to me. After a good cry I felt better. Hopefully today I’ll get the phone call that my father is going down to pick up the money for my car.
Best Friends
13th February 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
This is what best friends look like. I’ve known this girl since she was 12 and I was around 15. We have been through thick and thin, dark places, deaths and break ups.
I love this girl, even if she is taller than I am. After the fiacso that happened at the bar Saturday, we still managed to smile, laugh and have some serious fun. We compliment each other, but don’t try to out do each other and when the chips are down I know I can depend on her.
Upate:Post Doctor news
10th February 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
Well my lovely readers because of my fantastic beginning and the slowing of weight loss to the point of weight gain (+2 lbs this time!) I am now for the next two and a half weeks going to be on nothing but slim fast/protein bars and shakes as well as doing the work out routines like P90x, hip hop abs, Just Dance 3, Tae Bo etc. I am of course not going to waste my fruit that I have now so I don’t let them rot, and with the Jillian Micheals shakes for a meal it says to add fruit as well. So for the moment I am doing shakes and soups. Cream soups, tomato soup etc.
Oh and I used Avon smoothing shampoo, conditioner and serum this morning and blow dried my hair and oh lord is it strait. This is a pretty amazing feet in itself, because my hair doesn’t get strait for nothing.
*sigh* I can’t sleep for crap so I am getting off here to read a bit maybe watch another episode of Bones….
Wordless Wednesday
8th February 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
Heh, Mom’s!
4th February 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
I had an honest to god conversation about how scared I am about this operation (gastric bypass) and how there are times that I’m not sure if I want to go through with it, only to realize how much I do want to go through with it. And she finally said that after about a week of struggles on being just on a protein shake 2x a day and one solid meal that she was going to help me get my ass in gear because she believed in me. That made me feel tons better. Just hearing that someone believes in you makes everything a lot better. And let me tell you that I was really struggling.
Tomorrow I’m going dancing again. Hopefully no drama this time, just hard core dancing. Today I spend 45+ minutes walking around town to get to appointment after appointment. Literally from one end of town to the other. I am exhausted and fell asleep on the couch. But I did my cpap machine. Which is a good thing.
I haven’t been able to work out as much because my lungs are all clogged up because of being sick. Rawr. I was not happy about this.
Thank god for best friends.
30th January 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
My BF Sara came last night so we could spend some time together. Today we started watching Weeds and I began to work out on the gazelle and then did 3 reps of crunches. She got on the Gazelle and did a short work out and now she’s pacing around saying ‘This is all your fault.’ My reply? “W..T.. the actual F?” And we just start laughing at each other because, well we’ve known each other for 12 years.
She even did my dishes. <3 I was busy doing other things and she did my dishes! WOOHOO! I can’t stand to do dishes but I was really wound up and she helped to calm me down, thankfully. I can’t help but to look back on my life and be so thankful for the people like her in my life. That know how bat shit crazy I am and love me anyway. Its snowing outside, and I hate it. I wanna move somewhere warm! I knew that it was going to storm today because my legs and joints were hurting even before the work out.
For dinner we had steak and baked potato and for a snack I made fondue with some salsa in it. SO good. It sucks but whatever it happens.
I got a new nook color cover, with a sticker case that’s purple with a butterfly on it. I LOVE it. Absolute love. Its got a pocket in it that is so freaking nice (holds my laundry card.) Other than that my life has been pretty boring.
*wheeze, cough, hack*
27th January 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
Last night … er the past few days I should say, I’ve felt run down. I’ve been so hungry which has been hard to deal with. However, I’ve been running around so much I woke up this morning very sick. I’ve been taking nyquil today. I asked for Dayquil… but dad messed up and I can’t complain. I just get to ride the high. (I only take 1 tsb when the does is 2 tsp for an adult… my body just can’t handle it.) I am trying to tuck myself into bed so I can recoup but I keep wanting to get up and clean. It sucks but whatever. Well off to bed I go!
blogging epic fail
26th January 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
There are times in my life that when I make a goal, I tell myself that you’re so going to do it… only to have life get in the way. That’s what’s been happening to me. I’ve been out living my life. I’ve been dancing, singing, celebrating and I love every moment of it.
Last Saturday for an early birthday celebration (Mine was yesterday.) S, B, and myself all went out to go to the bar, and dance. I was broke, beyond broke so I was the driver and just drank water. I got hit on several times which made me happy, and B threw a fit over some unknown whatever and we took her home, S and I went back to the bar and she had another drink and we danced, then went to the Dandy to get some hoagies, and I got a 12 inch to have for lunch the next day (6 inch that night, the rest in the am.) and a few of the guys from the bar were there. They complimented me and we talked for a bit. We said our good byes and left.
That week my professional make up brushes came ( a month late mind you.) and I’ve been doing make up for people since when we go out. Then about a week or so later the pigments came. They are beautiful. They came on Monday as did another refund check from the school which came in so handy. S and I went to get JD my cousin. And we pulled an all nighter just talking, watching movies and having fun. Then my new phone came in. A pink blackberry which is going to come to be useful to me. I also got my furniture and 40 inch flat screen TV. Had a few friends come over to spend my birthday with me and now I am so feeling the lack of sleep.
Protein for this girl
9th January 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
One of the things I’ve heard over and over again during this process is to push your protein. I’ve been doing well on that, however my weight has ceased and suddenly I’m stuck in a 5lb pound back and forth of my last weigh in. I’m not sure if the scale is broken because I feel like I’ve lost a few pounds since then, however, I’m not taking any chances. So today I am eating solid foods and upping my water intake, and tomorrow I’m going to start my day with a whey protein shot in Acai Berry flavor (-.-) and do nothing but water, and shakes until I get over this plateau. This pictures is a chocolate peanut butter whey protein bar I got from wal-mart and it was really good. Chewy, sweet and totally satisfying. I can’t wait to try to caramel nut box I bought. But that is going to wait until waaay later. I ate the bar on my way home making sure I chewed the right amount of times, and now I’m FULL. *sigh*
I don’t have times for games.
2nd January 2012 | life lessons | 0 comments
There is one thing that I really won’t have time for once school starts back up for me again is games. Browsergames,flash games, W.o.W, wii, xbox 360 etc. It sucks because I love to play various games, but even my ipod touch is a distraction because I mean, hello Angry Birds and Fruit Ninja. Then I loose valuable time playing games instead of doing work. However it is a good way to relax.